Outdoorsy

i have been feeling really down lately. it's so hard to fake a smile so just ppl wont ask u what happen. sometimes i think if i die, how many ppl will really miss me. i am 22 only and i've made so many mistakes i really regret doing. the only 2 things i really want right now is boyfriend and diving. i dont think i'll find bf soon, so i only want to go diving. once, i'm through with this 4 yrs degree i am so gonna go travel and dive. i think i'm just not fated with guys, i'll befriend with the fishes then.