Outdoorsy

i'll eventually fall asleep later.
& when i woke up it'll be May the 15th.
despites the date,
i'll feel as per normal, maybe worse
i know jolly well my wishes will not come true.
life's sucks & i just gotta suck it up and move on...
anw,
before i forget or intentionally forget it,
i wish myself a happy birthday.
just be cheery & faster die
because good people die young.

i am so happy!
i've just ended a half an hour call with tahir.
tahir is my best friend while i'm in SP.

despite of our age difference,

we can really click very well.
& i can absolutely talk about anything to him.
& ytd i talked to felix for like an hour plus.
no, not felix my brother.
felix is my best buds like 10 yrs ago.
& i am so glad that we can chat like we used to after so long not talking.
u know distance makes everything difficult.

this is a good sign man!

i should reconnect with all my ex-buddies.
i hope i got the chance to talk to bill.
my buds 6 years back who now stays in the US.
& also viv!
my mate during secondary school days.

* this feeling is so good, especially at times like this.*

after my very busy weeks previously,

i'm kinda lost right now.

staying at home practically doing nothing.

i am so used to working & having a tight schedule.

rushing to be on time for my flight or even to catch the bus.

& now i am here with plenty of time to waste till tomorrow.

at work,

i have things to do, not-so-urgent things.

but the urgent things keep coming

& so the not-so-urgent things are left behind.

with this particular reason,

i am allowed to do OT whenever i am available.

oh man, i am so in love with Working weekend OT.

even though i have to take public bus that takes me total of 1.5 hours journey

or waking up really damn early,

i am looking forward to OT on weekends.

& as everyone else every weekdays i am counting down to saturday.

but for me it's looking forward to work on saturday.

plus the more $$ that i have means the more $$ i can spend.

so, the whole point of this post is:

1. i think i have become a workaholic

2. being busy is very good. it keeps your worries aside although only for a little while.

on a side note,

it's barely 6 more days to go.

but i am not excited for my birthday, at all.

i realised the excitement of your birthday fades as you grow older.

it's like some fairies took back the magic we used to feel when we were kids.

;(

*It's better to let go and see if they come back, than to hold on and see if they let go. *

I am officially a certified open water diver.
some thing that i really wanted to try for long long long time.
coming back to normal life was difficult.
it's like my soul is left in the water.
i feel so lost coming back to the ground,
& of course with all the problems that life offers me.
anyway,
i've been thinking to work as diver in underwater world.
i'm not sure they'll want part time only on weekends.
i have no intention to leave my current job. i like it.
but i also want this job.
if i go for a dive trip,
i need money, a partner& of course mom's permission.
but if i work here, i'll get to dive & at the same time i get the $$.
i am now eye-ing to learn surfing.
i am young & i will enjoy my life.