was extremely f***ed up today.
i was joking with ailsa,
& unforunately this girl doesnt catch my joke (almost all the time).
& she thought i was scolding her.
i replied her in a high tone to make her think i'm angry with her though i was just playing with her..
but some people just have to add fire on the sparks.
they say things like 'dont quarell, quarantine quarantine'.
not once. not twice. many times.
if u dont realise,
the whole class at the corridor was listening to u all.
i was f***ed up.
why cant u all just keep quiet? or at least quiten down a bit?
u think i'm that stupid to really quarell with her?
no use saying anything at that point of time.
u all will still say the same thing. 'dont quarel'
& ppl will think i'm really quarelling with her.
if u think i'm f***ed up with ailsa, think again.
i'll be slamming doors, throwing things when i'm f***ed up.
but since i'm in school & it's so unglam to do that.
i just kept quiet. the whole day.
when the day is spoilt, no matter wad the mood wont be good.
go & bitch about me after reading this.
i can be a harrible bitch if i want to.
but i wont do that.
forgive & forget.
that's wad ppl always say.
reached home & i screamed in my pillow.
i'm good now.
thanks for those ppl being concern.
i was just not in the mood to talk.
although it's annoying that u say the wrong thing with the wrong volume & at the wrong time,
i still love u both.
this is the last time i'm gonna talk about this.
i'll be keeping this in the diary of my 19th age.
& will tear that page when i turn 20 to save up space for other happy things.
;D
*i'm gonna have my beauty nap now.*
*f***ed up is not fucked up. it's fed up with 4Es.*